winnmills

2006-10-24T22:37:00.000+08:00

1156 useless entries on blogspot later, i have been LJ-ed.
see you there!

2006-10-23T20:15:00.000+08:00

3/4 of the family is on the verge of breaking down and my dad is still happily eating hokkien mee and watching some lame tcs8 reality tv show.

no, 2 out of 4 of the family is on the verge of breaking down and my brother is just, i quote, 'moaning and groaning' about life.
sure i know there's a certain degree of stress and unhappiness in your workplace but at least you still get time off to play in the evenings and weekends.
WE have reason enough to 'moan and groan', ok.
we're up to our necks and pushed against the wall as it is. you are not one of us.

ohh yea, wenshing told me to 'see her in her office' on thurs, hurhurhurhurhhurhrhruhrurrrurhhuhururhrhruHUR.
ok la, we're only discussing about my temporal log. and she doesn't seem very happy with me lately, i must flirt with/impress her on thurs!

2006-10-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

- i want to volunteer for the first asian film fest but the bleeding ntu webmail system screwed up and i received wenshing's email a few days too late. that means no free screening tix ):
- the stupid uncle at ruby told me to collect my photos yday but when i went they were closed for deepavali now i have nothing to show wenshing on monday, so i can't flirt with her, ohh no. hahaha
- i want a hot hongkong actress gf :D
- i need to stop knocking out and sleeping insane hours
- i need to work out i'm white and fugly
- i thinned my own hair without a pair of thinning scissors the other day, i rock.

2006-10-20T16:27:00.000+08:00

i was such a mess today on the bus back home from school.
i was pissed, depressed, stressed, fannoyed, insulted, all in one huge hazeball.
then when i got on the mrt i just went deadweight, again, and when i woke up 2 stations after my destination the tears have already dried

i hate new places, you always have to start from scratch to establish yourself AGAIN because people don't know your history and they're always so quick to judge. and if you decide to be nice/polite all you can do is smirk at those snide remarks. do you even know who/what u're talking to.

i hate my clique, or whatever's left of it. it makes me not want to go to sch more than the workload makes me. i think i'm seriously gonna consider switching classes next sem. i quite like huimin's class and group 5(?). then again i wanna stick to all my current profs minus karen hong.

i hate karen hong's stupid fabric exercises, it's the bane of my 2d grades. her and her stupid fashion degree, her and her stupid This Fashion wear. i hate it.

i hate how everytime you leave it makes me feel so insignificant, maybe even unnecessary.

asha can i come to leeds to study and be happy with life with you.

2006-10-18T21:26:00.000+08:00

96% of the population in NTU is so FUCKING DENSE

2006-10-17T21:31:00.000+08:00

if i had all the time with you, will you survive me
if i had all the words to say, will you believe me
if i had all the tears to cry, will you undress me
and if i had all the strength to breathe, what would you do?

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at 19 we feel like:
soccer has lost its meaning
art has lost its purpose
nothing ever made full sense.

i cannot put to words like you could about how all of us seem to be feeling about life right now... somehow we always find an excuse for our jadedness. haha.
we're going for soccer trngs just to de-stress, we're working so hard to get As, we've been talking to strangers who give us some sort of an attention
we just gotta work harder to find the answers i guess.

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today joan kelly was damn happy with the sketches i did for homework :D
we started on portraiture and liyao rocked the class with her portraits of alice
and knowing daniel he kept making fun of the little mistakes in her drawing...
seriously.
i hate noses.

2006-10-15T22:32:00.000+08:00

THE CLIQUE is getting damn fannoying

A is still depressed over fridae boy; everytime u step into class u can feel the looming depression already it's fannoying
D is sure fun to hang out with but he fucking gets on my nerves all the time; "I VERY PRO AHH", "shit lor they are going to copy my temporal log..." (hi who gave you the idea to log it that way in the first place? (:)

i like J and Y's company but,
J hasn't been coming to sch for abit
Y hasn't been coming for 4d for 6weeks (wenshing doesnt seem to know), she's only come for 3 3d lessons, she has never went for lit tutorials ie. we probably won't get to see her next sem?

sch is ending soon winn sch is ending soon.

2006-10-15T19:02:00.000+08:00

they're gonna have a subsidised overseas trip for soccer during hols, so i'm so squeezing out extra time to show my face at trainings!
and as aaronelle/aaronita says, nobody hates zidane for what he did so i shdnt worry too much myself too. haha!
AND this also means i'll miss some IHG tennis, so how not to be happy?

2006-10-13T17:40:00.001+08:00

my room is fucking disgusting and that's not even half of it!
today i will do no work but pack my room, or attempt/pretend to.
i didn't sleep last night at all and i'm having molly cramps; blame it on friday the 13th

2006-10-12T18:02:00.000+08:00

3d class was another holiday today, chris told us about our final semester project it's gonna be a CHOCOLATE SCULPTURE.
i like the thought of extracting blocks of chocolate from boonlay air (the air here smells of chocolate and spice, remember?) with the use of sheets of filter paper which we would wave around to capture chocolate vapour/particles.

i know we always laugh at how chris thinks he has achieved nirvana and how he's trying to nurture us all the time with his philosophies and talk, but really, i like his classes alot because i never leave it without getting some sort of a braincandy. i never realised how people could actually tell if you've had that one single passion in your life.

by the way i was kidding about extracting chocolate from air, so don't even try.

2006-10-12T17:40:00.000+08:00

whoa yday i flew back to sch at 8pm to catch mementos, pretty cool film but very typically hollywoodish art film ala lucid/eternal sunshine. and then when i got back i watched persona, some warped b&w film for lit.
it really isn't a good idea to watch 2 full-length art films in a night, i couldn't sleep then because i kept trying to piece my thoughts together.

2006-10-11T14:26:00.000+08:00

quote of the day
A: "noooo................................ i SO get it lor. (and all of you suck because i SO understand the whole gist of waiting for godot and you don't and you can't speak cheem like i can and if your work is not complicated it means it has no flow, lor.)"

quote of the month
A: "please, i don't need fridae lor."

quote of the year
A: "omg, this looks like winnie's!"

2006-10-10T19:41:00.000+08:00

"it takes one to know one", they say.
i am going to end up shaving a stump of a mohawk into my head and blasting random people's heads off with a shiny little pistol when i eventually decide to go up to you.

but you know what, i wouldn't ever trade my life for yours, the kind of lifestyle that you have been forcing on me, the kind of life everyone forces on everyone else.
this is the one big difference between us, so stop laughing at me just because i am that much better. than you. thank you.

2006-10-07T23:45:00.000+08:00

finally got to know what these things are called - DOMOKUNS!
huimin says she wants one even more than a j__l :O

2006-10-07T18:24:00.000+08:00

the haze is insane, i can even see the smoke that hovers between the monitor and my face as i toil thru the 370th word of my essay.

2006-10-07T13:31:00.000+08:00

joan kelly and bridget didn't show up yday at tyler prints LOL
we ended up leaving really early, yizhi and i went over to the bookcafe to evaluate our sch lives and lament about 2d

this weekend is gonna be insane, i have like 16sketches, a 4-image storyboard, cd art, 1500-word lit essay to finish up
i also have to pretend my temporal log and surrealism painting is underway, yey me.
and damn haze, how am i supp to take decent photos, without choking on air even.

2006-10-05T21:56:00.000+08:00

sch was practically a holiday today, all we did was watch a leo da vinci documentary which was pretty cool.
then we had individual 3d portfolio review and chris toh said i'd make it as a JAPANESE product designer :DDD
and he asked if we wanted to follow him to tokyo next month so he could show us around but hello we have papers, and i have no money. ):
damn tempted to do product now cos they have sponsored trips to milan and tokyo next year

2006-10-05T03:13:00.000+08:00

whoawhoa. i have readers from chiangmai, LEEDS, KENTMORE, MELBOURNE. (teehee)

anyways signmyguestbook has been banished.
puny comments link below though!

2006-10-04T06:13:00.000+08:00

VLADIMIR: i missed you... and at the same time i was happy. isn't that a queer thing?

ESTRAGON: (shocked) happy?

VLADIMIR: perhaps it's not quite the right word.

ESTRAGON: and now?

VLADIMIR: now?... (joyous) there you are again... (indifferent) there we are again... (gloomy) there i am again.

ESTRAGON: you see, you feel worse when i'm with you. i feel better alone too.

VLADIMIR: (vexed) then why do you always come crawling back?

ESTRAGON: i don't know.

VLADIMIR: no, but i do. it's because you don't know how to defend yourself. i wouldn't have let them beat you.

2006-10-04T01:34:00.000+08:00

i'm slipping back into the insane obsessive routine that was 2years ago,
not QUITE as pathetic only because i don't quite have time to be these days anymore.
i want to be normal, like everyone else but i hate homogenising(?) and as wenshing says, "there is no such thing as, normal."

well foundation drawing class today was awesome, i wasn't as fluctuative as i am normally :D
but according to someone since that someone was drawing 'half-fuck'ly today, all of us ARE drawing half-fuck-ly. mmmmmmmfwfyweiufyawuhhuh

i dreamt that i got b+ for 3d, and everyone in class was unhappy, and we came to our house to whine about 3d portfolios, and i commented that it felt and smelt like chinese new year which is weird i haven't celebrated cny for decades.
i can even dream about work in my pathetic 4hrs of sleep...

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i want an lca fisheye adaptor

and the wide angle flash things seem pretty awesome
whenever it senses a flash within close proximity it'll go off too!

ok alright, godot is waiting for me.

2006-10-03T14:47:00.000+08:00

ntu; oddballs and bad english of the world unite

2006-10-01T23:17:00.000+08:00

i should slap myself. sleep and sleep somemore.
3friggin9 missed calls and i didn't even stir... hahaha
i hardly did any work today what is wrong with me.

traded my aeropro for dosh and spent a bomb on some music and films i've been longing to get for some time. :D
you always laugh at how old i'm getting but the cashier always demands to check my ID for M-18 films and alcohol. haha

ohh yea and it's not any of you, it's my gasbook. it's been down for a whole month... i can't even sign it myself.

2006-10-01T00:41:00.000+08:00

the entire day is gone and all i did was sleep, draw the last cacat foot, tweak or pretend to tweak the cd art shit, pretend to explain 4 autistic images poetically, go crazy over hostel fees, eat zaru soba and curry.

yey me!
i need to stop screwing 2d up, i never listen to wtf karen hong is talking about so i keep doing wrong things
no more playing around in 2d, no more redoing unnecessary work please winn.

so i WILL NOT go for soccer later, i don't think anymore even.

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i have 277 friends but i only really need 5. or just 1 even. in singapore.
we can have impromptu runaways to gwc macs or to esplanade and pretend to be indie because anything remotely indie is so cool, LOR.

2006-09-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

too busy for this too busy for that too busy for anyone
i remember when we discussed this months ago we came to a conclusion that we're just giving excuses for ourselves
definitely if you cared to manage your time better you'd have space for everything?
sure you could BALANCE things, but i want more than that.
then how can the same old thing sustain that little bit of joy.

i want to play soccer, i hope the team and coach doesnt hate me because i really want to play but my priorities have changed.
remember how it was soccer, tennis, then soccer and then sleeping thru every single econs lesson not doing any work, stoning thru every math question wongsengchee claims to go thru. haha.
i want to go out and play and meet my friends i haven't seen since forever.

i WILL go for soccer this sunday even though i have no friends in the main team but i have to pretend to be friends with the seniors and have awkward conversations with them and everyone will give me deathlooks and the coach will probably bench me and hate me.

2006-09-28T20:12:00.000+08:00

PHWOAR! www.liquidsculpture.com
the last one is called elephant toes... hehe
a 8x10 print is frickin USD$95 ):

2006-09-27T04:13:00.000+08:00

omfg michael lau is so cool, ok.

2006-09-27T00:42:00.000+08:00

ohh my goodness it is WEDNESDAY already and i'm not even half done with my 2d pile of madness.
wtf and we have to draw more feet and a bleeding life size drawing for foundation
and wtf if i don't get my bleeding lit essay done by this week i can forget about handing it up anyway

on mon we met up with glads who's back from aus and she brought us a whole box of KRISPY KREME!
it was the talk of the town, quite literally. :D
thanks so much glads!
and also thanks for the king brown mag i really would be over the moon if only i didn't have the mag already LOL
pple are always buying me books i already have it's damn frustrating!

sorry friends for being MIA but i really have alot of shit to do
i don't even think i can finish them all cos i hate handing up half-fuck work
anyway i'm damn pissed off with the 3d portfolio extension wtf everyone in class changed their portfolios to black (ok, fine.) and alot of them ripped off my layoutSSSSS...
like excuse me you bring a cacat pink popular folder and don't label your work then over the weekend you change it to look like mine hello that's damn unfair you deserve to fail ohh my god save me.
and besides that i'm still peeved with the pple who ripped off my 3d curves because they're really personal to me.

2006-09-24T04:48:00.000+08:00

andy goldsworthy is so fucking cool, OK.

2006-09-20T15:12:00.000+08:00

a boonlay morning always slices me up in different directions
the queue to 179 never ceases and we practically have to walk round a whole running track to get to the berth
if u jay-walked across the interchange you could get there before the boy 100m ahead of you
nobody else does it but me
and i can hardly keep my eyes open
and all day the air smells of chocolate powder and spice

you would have liked it here if you gave it a chance.

2006-09-18T23:05:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired and underwater these days
but i am never above anyway, it merely varies between 20,000 leagues and shallow waters haha

derns says ADM is doing things to me
i cry out DON'T STEP ON MY WORK in my sleep
i forget to pay for my meals at fast food centres
i carry groceries with the bags by my eyes

we have study break next week, but, what break.

2006-09-18T00:39:00.000+08:00

hi,
how have you been.
i love you let's be friends

2006-09-05T22:42:00.000+08:00

5 best things since sliced bread:
1. lyra 6b graphite sticks
2. playstation portable
3. in-ear earphones
4. cup noodles
5. kittens

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The NTU soccer jersey is damn gay, and they gave me a damn gay size. FFF
I also got to tell Joan Kelly that I'm a her/she today, you should have seen the look on her face.

2006-09-02T19:14:00.000+08:00

last evening i came home and collapsed on the bed, i didn't quite stir till about 12pm today.
i am trying to summarise wallflower for 4d class but there are so many things going on in the story that i cannot decide how to present it with just 3 bleeding images.
and wenshing was so crazy abt my last assignment she wants me to research on the origins of hiphop culture and present it to the class. even worse that there actually isn't quite a definite origin for hiphop.
i remember meeting Jaye's gf months ago and going "OMG, SAM(from the perks of being a wallflower)!" secretly to myself

2006-08-31T03:11:00.000+08:00

this evening felt almost like christmas eve.

well i also had my first clubbing experience today.
stepping on puke looking at repeated constructed faces over and over again seeing pple trying to fit in spotting you and your boyfriends remembering how we used to be great pals when we were 10 missing you so bad
you are my bestest friend now as you read this you don't even know it.

2006-08-29T21:41:00.000+08:00

happy tuesday! (:

almost everything is going well over here at China, so don't worry friends!
save for some whammies here and there...
today i was damn champion, first i forgot to bring my passport photo for the soccer form so my dad brought it down to boonlay for me heh
then i happily went back and mooched around alone till art hist, walked to south spine for class and then i remembered the venue was changed! ADM building is like light years away so i walked all the way to the main road and boarded a 179 and OMG it brought me out of NTU
THEN after soccer i missed my stop cos all these foreign students were blocking my view! and there was this one who just SAT ON MY SHOE BAG. i can't stand it when pple do that, they do it on purpose so you will move ur bloody things for them to sit!
ok and lastly i don't quite get art history... i mean like no one has done a proper presentation for tutorials yet... they're practically all smoking their way thru... save for 1 or 2 pple. well i'm not saying i can do better or anything... i'll prolly be damn clueless next week when it's our turn to present

ok and soccer was awesome... it's the only time i get to unwind these days. luckily anqi came down for trng cos all the other sa soccer pple pungseh me. tsk.

today after brushing my teeth i needed to go pee so i put my toothbrush in my pocket and i totally forgot about it... and brought it to foundation drawing!
my tcher still thinks im a he/his/him. :|

(((:

2006-08-28T17:52:00.000+08:00

happy monday! (:

geri: do you want to go to world cup with me after uni?
me: I WANT. but... how much?
geri: 10k
me: omg why so ex, you mean you calculated?
geri: no i just anyhow
me: you know i was so sad when brazil lost..... ... OMG YOU LOOK LIKE.
geri: RONALDINHO. ya i know!

HAHA SO CUTE I NEVER NOTICED!

anyways... mdm cai lixian diagnosed me as obsessive compulsive yday... i never thought my strange quirks were considered.
freaky, and annoying.

2006-08-25T20:07:00.000+08:00

Luler.

Flilm.

In The Cave there are only shadows AND ONLY SHADOWS.

Smile lines that make me feel at home.

Leaving on a jet plane.

Leaving on a jet plane sooner than later.

2006-08-23T14:47:00.000+08:00

i've had so many things i wanted to blog about but i've been so busy i didn't have time to and i forgot them all anyway.
really don't get how the seniors seem like they have so much time on their hands when our batch is struggling like mad... and it's not just my course even!
maybe we've been slacking too much all of our lives that we're dying now.
but i am not even half as sad as i was anymore

yesterday after soccer xiaoxuan and elyse cooked up a simple fare for dinner (:
really glad to have pple around campus so we can take care of each other. i kinda miss YIZHI even though shes in my fac and hall i hardly see her anymore!
was asked to join the league but i always feel so battered the day after trngs and matches i don't know if i should.

2006-08-18T19:37:00.000+08:00

dan: HAHAHA your tshirt looks like you!
jo: HAHA ohh ya abit!

i found it damn amusing, i did.

2006-08-15T16:46:00.000+08:00

wee i just got my macbook!
and i hate school, i always leave class feeling so cheated...
i keep messing up all the assignments please!
we were supposed to do some 15-20min sketches for homework, so obviously i drew shitty simple objects
and then when we were supp to show it to joan kelly alot of pple did damn elaborate drawings? 20minutes my ass... tsk SINGAPOREANS. think i better redo this TOO. RAH
she must've hated me after seeing my sketchbook cos she ignored me entirely during figure drawing class... pfft. ):
i also have to redo my photo assignment for wenshing's class. PFFT.
i feel so cheated!

ohh and my class is starting to warm up... they're not too bad i guess...
haha rach's sis finally found her way around and she's supp to be in my tutorial grp!

ok fuck i need to get down to doing work and REDOING work. i hate myself.

2006-08-12T20:38:00.000+08:00

cute japanese kid! and yok sightings in haji lane

saturday was spent on a single photo assignment and worrying about homework.
thanks to aaron weif and lirns for helping out today! really appreciate having such cool ex-classmates :D would post a photo of it but it looks pretty lame and they look quite unglam in it, so. hehe
after we hgehed thru the photo assignment lirns and i went shopping at booksactually (((((((((:
i got me some cool buys, finally!
one assignment down, a gajillion more to go.
uhhhmmmrrfff.

2006-08-09T14:25:00.000+08:00

2days of school and i already feel so BASHED UP.
and i haven't done any homework or pack anything to go back to hall...
can i not?
it's so good to be home

2006-08-02T02:46:00.000+08:00

been wanting to collapse since 8, but the owl in me is back again. it's crazy. i've resetted my body clock and slept well for the past couple of weeks. WEEKS, i say.

i've been busy, yet not quite.
attempted to play some tennis this morn with angie and georgie... we ended up playing maybe half an hour and chatting for 1.5hrs?
no more tennis for me man. fucking sport.

i moved a FRACTION of stuff into our dorm today... actually we went to ikea to get some stuff and dumped it in ntu.
damn happy with my buys plus everyone even my mom said it's bloody cheap!
gah ntu is so friggin isolated, it really does feel like i'm going overseas(china) to study. the bus terminal and mrt is crazy crowded during peak hours... i've got a feeling i won't even feel like leaving the campus on weekends.

FRIENDS, you will be much missed. but i will escape to city occasionally to get art supplies and haircuts :D

ohh and ntu is so retarded and slowwwwwwwwww. half of the things they make us do online do not work (they said we could apply for more than one sport but the damn thing kept giving me error saying i already signed up for one so i can't anymore!) AND i haven't gotten my mac yet cos i'm waiting to get it thru the sch but they haven't told/shown us any shit. bitch.
and FFFF i don't get why lit students aren't exempted from INTRODUCTION TO LIT like they do in nus.

2006-07-27T01:53:00.000+08:00

the f&n factory next to my house would've been a great place for a photo trip if it wasn't torn down maybe 15yrs ago...
same with old kellock compound, abandoned or not.
and the old neighbourhood playground.
i wish i had photos.

now it is fraser suites right smack between me and the fireworks display every year, a spanking-new river valley primary school and a new skool playground with lame contraptions.

what playground. they don't even have those killer swings like they use to anymore.
haha we believed one day we could swing so hard we'd make one full revolution around the bar.
can't write what you can't say in the sand anymore because they've replaced them with foam grounds
can't climb those ridiculously dangerous stone sculpture things and kill yourself when you jump off it anymore.

2006-07-24T01:34:00.000+08:00

racial what harmony... do we really not hate each other enough to fight openly or are we just afraid/lazy.

and why so cold lately. i didnt mean to do or not do whatever it is that is keeping you away from me. it must be, because all of this seems so unfair. not fair not fair not fair.

i met up with behin and lynn the other day. beh and i havent seen each other for 2years and we could just talk like we haven't seen each other for maybe 2weeks at the most. thank goodness i got to meet up with her a couple of hours before her flight, since claudia was to busy with marcus to even fucking contact me to meet up with beh together...
she said in canada THE sport for girls is soccer... even more girls play soccer than guys because the guys in canada play ice hockey. man.

and today, ash and i checked out the new raffles city basement. quite nice place to be, except how new spaces and shopping centres seem to be planned in such a way where shops are scattered around and you have to walk in circles to get you anywhere. like marina square.

i have to start caring enough abt things, or act like it soon.

2006-07-22T19:31:00.000+08:00

WOOOSH i can almost do around the world on the soccer ball already :D

I'M DAMN STONED AND BROKE AND ALL I CAN DO IS EAT.
why won't anybody ask me out to play tennis or soccer anymore ):

2006-07-22T00:32:00.000+08:00

you are not here.
i am tired i will go to sleep.

2006-07-17T01:49:00.000+08:00

it's been whammy day after whammy day. seriously! and please just continue to take everything away. i need more misses than hits in my life!

anyway baybeats this year went by too fast. too busy and too many whammies to handle this weekend so i ended up watching only 4 bands.
i went RIGHT AFTER ronnie and plainsunset was done... ):
of all bands to miss.

ohh but there's this damn cute japanese (by cute i mean aww adorable not OMG JAP GUYZZ ARE SO CUTEXXX) called shingo from PNP. nards and i were like MINUS POINTS FOR RONNIE!!! and ronnie was maybe 3 metres away from us in the audience hehe.
they play really weird and interesting shite half of everyone just started walking away one by one haha.

then there was this annoying class couple next to us today. hahahaha please just guess.

grrrrrrrrr

2006-07-13T09:28:00.000+08:00

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speaking of bombs there was one at friggin toapayoh yday
i hope andre aka. the boy who wouldn't die got to be a part of the action

2006-07-11T06:05:00.000+08:00

great evening out with ferns derns jes yday at the arts house then to gluttons bay for dinner and bumming where we talked abt everything under the "saliva-smudged" moon.
ferns said ms k used to live in friggin RUSSIA. i want to ask her if LCAs are really dirt-cheap there when we pay bombs for it over here.

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Royston's Shorts and Singapore Shorts on dvd

watch, weep laugh relate or go HUH.

statcounter says someone from australia is reading. HI GLADS! (: UPDATE YOUR BLOG ALREADY

2006-07-11T01:12:00.000+08:00

jackiechan-style movie with girl whose name i can't remember but am sure starts with m who fell in love with the hero who went home with her in a cab after camp who pecked her on the cheek who smiled and never had to think too much nor want too much who made me smile and never want to wake up

dreams.

2006-07-09T08:57:00.000+08:00

omg a handcrafted DIGI lomo- http://sushicam.com/?p=45

but then again it still looks digital. could prolly save all the trouble and photoshop the vignette yourself...

The search for songs has turned hopeless. So i turn to you meaningless.
Hey, we'll be your friends.
I don't sleep. I don't count sheep. I talk to the shepherd. We don't plead. We don't eat. We just take all your money.
Trust us cos we'll be your friends.

The search for me has turned hopeless. So i turn to you so meaningless...

2006-07-07T23:20:00.000+08:00

I want a Diana.

and everything else to fill this *-shaped void
no one can ever have TOO MANY CAMERAS.

2006-07-07T01:07:00.000+08:00

2006-07-05T22:47:00.000+08:00

medical checkup today wasn't so bad, they were damn efficient! wasn't as bad/strange/annoying as pple claimed it to be.
we also got dragged by ntu students to do some consumerism survey and got $5 each out of it, heh.

baybeats is coming! i haven't seen ronnie in ages.
divalafutbol is coming!
sch days are approaching fast days are nearing...

hey kid don't you remember that i'll never get older?

2006-07-02T22:50:00.000+08:00

impromptu ARTS day with yizhi today, and proper good food for the first time in a long while. (:

portugal won :D
brazil's out whatinthe. ):

i want to migrate to brazil and play soccer for my country. but since that's impossible, maybe play for singapore and pretend i am brazilian like how we close our eyes and imagine cheese prata has juicy mushrooms. it works. (:

2006-07-02T00:15:00.000+08:00

happy day :D

woke up late for soccer as usual and felt bad about it, but trang and pris didnt even drag themselves out of bed to bukit batok so it was us 4 sad j2s and neighbourhood kids again.
for some reason i'm Fbad at penalty kicks but i can knock down a 330ml 100plus bottle from couple of metres everytime i attempted shots. what. in. the.

went home to stone for abit then cycled to town to meet ash. cycling TO town is SUCH a chore cos there're so many upslopes. during the 1hr 15min of stoning in a secluded corner at lido i met aaron and weifen. there was this mute cleaner there asking if WEIF AND I WERE TOGETHER (in fact she insisted we were) in sign language when aaron went off to get something. HAHAHA

dinner on ash (: then we went to support hans' gig for orchardjam.
he dedicated the emoest song to us from their set just when we weren't paying attention so it was damn HAHA.
"hans wants this song to go out to the 2 girls over there."
i was rubbing sleep from my eyes and ash was saying something funny to me at that moment, and when we looked up the guitarist was pointing at us and everyone was staring. HAHA
hans gave us free outdated local band compilations for coming to his gig. aww.

i think i'll live forever
but maybe i won't
but if i die tomorrow
i won't deny the fact
or even lie that i
wanted more
i was full of greed and awe
i took for granted
everything

just like the writings on the wall
its all been written off
all the hope and dreams are gone
with the wind

like eternity
it goes on forever
and ever more

and all those who live
might never forget
but i hope you understand

love from above
whatever gives them hope
like the morning sunrise
tomorrow

if i knew it was the last time
i'd send you notes
and i won't let go until
you promise
you'll come back
i'll never let you go
i'll never let you go

take not for granted
all you've got
all your loved ones
hold them close
because you'll never know
when they'll go

2006-06-30T03:01:00.000+08:00

2006-06-28T02:49:00.000+08:00

It's back to late nights and late rises for no apparent reason.
I've been wanting to get up early to play soccer or take photos but I end up waking in the evening these days haha.
I am also trying to get back into blogging mode just so people away from me won't forget me. (:
Getting back into thinking mode for school as well. Brain's been dormant for so long...

Please ask me out for tennis soccer pingpong phototaking tanning shopping ANYTHING.
I miss doing nothing but these but everyone's so busy being unavailable and keeping themselves AT ARM'S LENGTH.
Please.

2006-06-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling emo and annoyed today. disgusting sec sch/poly cheenapoks next to me on 179. walked, climbed millions of steps to get to ntu student services centre, and trekking back to the busstop was a Mrs Yeobright experience.

alone times always make me think hard about my insecurities and flaws... makes me wonder how those 2 heart-breakers are doing lately too, i haven't heard from them in months.

work was fuck.

mom got me awesome soccer gear but i'm either numbed from receiving comfort from material things or today's just THAT disgusting.

tmr MUST be better because, 1. soccer in the morn with yixin & co., 2. long-awaited asylum trip with yizhi AND they're having a sale AND i'm not (that) broke! 3. meeting up with a41.
the exodus begins tmr with glads leaving for aus though. wth it doesn't even feel like shes gonna be gone for 5yrs or so.

2006-06-19T03:35:00.000+08:00

jose and pedro auditioning for the adidas +10 commercial. SO CUTE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I1YOJRub1vM&search=jose%20%2B10

2006-06-17T04:21:00.000+08:00

today an envelope ripped to shreds and repacked in a plastic cover by singpost came.
grr ADM orientation.
according to daph there's faculty orientation, a general orientation, and a hall orientation to go for. i'm thinking if i should even go for any since it's not compulsory. but, yea.
if you recall i refused to make friends/talk to any one of the OG mates in cj and sa because it's just so retarded and everyone is either cool kidzzz, trying to be cool kidzzz, or too cool for cool kidzzz.
and then i ran away from every strand of class orientation.

i hate people.

2006-06-12T21:14:00.000+08:00

NOBODY won the challenge ):
even weifen who gave herself 4 guesses, HAHA.
i am so disappointed in all of you. my dad's #9, THE MODEL.

yesterday i met wenting and weishan in the joga bonito tent... they're working there and it was just funny.
wenting: which team do you support
me: none
wenting: don't you watch worldcup? and EPL?
me: no i don't really watch soccer.
wenting: WAIT... you're winnie right?

today i met james. it's been 5years since we've last met (i've seen him doing HAHA extras on mediacorp lately though) and he says i still look like a kiddo, maybe 16yrs. :D

my SHAWNIMALS came in the mail today (((: they're punier and cuter than they look and i love pocket stache it makes me laugh-

POCKET NINJA when it comes to stealth, size matters. this double wee ninja was bred to slip undetected into places of interest - usually to nab ninja star-shaped chocolates, candy smoke bombs and other ninja-friendly sweet treats.

POCKET SPLUG an open letter to pocket splug:
you, like a puppy or bear cub, will one day grow up and be marginally less cute than you are now. Until then, i will celebrate your cuteness and your loveable baby fat. i love you, pocket splug!

POCKET STACHE like his father, this macho stache has a moustache all its own - thought it's merely stubble at this larval stage. and as legend tells, this stache's stache has a stache, too! It's so small an electron microscope is needed to see the tiny folicles.

OKOK. i love toys. (:

2006-06-08T14:25:00.000+08:00

Dad, THE BASKETBALLER. It's ok I still asscone you dad.

Haha guess which one's my dad! Prize is a day out with winn.

2006-06-07T12:23:00.000+08:00

i had that dream about you again
where i wait outside until you let me in
and there i stayed

2006-06-03T22:16:00.000+08:00

i haven't had so much fun in months.
today i dragged my sorry body out of bed and to kovan for some strange street soccer comp... it was bleedingly held in uhm... the parking area for the bus interchange.
my eyes were/are dying and it was FFFhot please. 7.30am to 5.30pm in a parking lot of the bus interchange and we sent in like... 5teams. lol.
was great to see us j3s doing what we can with lumbering around due to post-As.
props to yixin for being an amazing fighter, to pris for amazing saves, to candy for star-defending, to trang for amazing penalty kicks, to the rest of sa soccer for cheering and sound effects. (((:

2006-06-02T19:59:00.000+08:00

make a mental list of people you don't even remotely dislike.
hard, isn't it?

we got a new monitor but my phone's busted. the screen has no light haha so i can only squint at it at a precise angle to read/type msgs.
i'll get everything together when i feel like it...

2006-05-29T00:01:00.000+08:00

yesterday vik said he'd never get married and we celebrated bachelorism.
today he showed me his girlfriend and i asked if he was gonna marry her he said yea.

2006-05-21T08:47:00.000+08:00

computer's down so i've been MIA-ing from here. using ben's porn-filled comp now HEH.
the way the monitor died was so retarded i'm not even going to tell you how it did.
and there are no plans to get a new monitor cos i have to fork out the $$$.
hahaha i'll just wait till i get a macbook, if that's ever going to happen either.

meanwhile i've figured the only way out is to stop caring entirely... when you don't care enough, nothing can hurt you.
so cheers to all you fucking accidental heroes.
i should just collect stamps.

don't miss me too much when i'm gone.

2006-05-14T18:36:00.000+08:00

Just whose mother stands up and cheers for honey-glazed chicken from coldstorage?
Statcounter says there're even more NTU ADM prowlers around here. Uhh, this is weird la. People are so excited they're trying to get a head start on who's in their school is it.

Anywayway I'm still dying from yesterday. Thank goodness I am rid of flower lady and her demanding art directions.
We can only sit and wait now.

It is such a sad/slow/lazy sunday to not continue thinking about and reflecting on life.
Two years and you're acting like you've never experienced sin and rejection... Really oughta hand it to you.
Just one rollercoaster of a relationship and you're qualified to judge. Just like that. ha. ha.

I just came across anne devon's (devan?) art on friendster.
I am going to fail foundation year like CRAZY.

AND who wants to go to BooksActually with me? It's featured on this month's Ish and it looks damn cool.

2006-05-13T23:39:00.000+08:00

i am so tireddddd
adm tea party was, amusing.
i thought i was gonna be quite loner but we hung out in little 'acquaintance' groups which wasn't that bad considering there were a couple of poor lonely boys lined along the walls of the room. and cj-modelesque-edwin was one of them till he started hanging out with this purple girl the entire time :P i don't get why that boy doesn't have to go for ns. and none of the cj pple seemed to want to acknowledge him. poor boy. :P
there was this nice tp boy who butted into our group HEH we are cool kidzzz.
we met sherry there. sherry who used be my neighbour and who used to gang up with JASMINE TAN HAHAHAHA to bully me in primary school.
and everywhere there will be SA kids you have never seen in your entire life.

2006-05-13T11:37:00.000+08:00

really don't get how memories of us are fading so quick... now i have to work so hard to even recall. maybe it's how i'm giving it up with you throwing everything in my face.
i can't blame you but you can't blame me either.

saturdays and sundays always wake me up emo.
it's wet out ):

2006-05-13T01:07:00.000+08:00

hello hello i'm still alive!

yiz jing and i are working on this design comp and deadline's on BLEEDING SUNDAY. ohh panel of judges pleeeeease select us because we wanna build this thing. the prize money's really only secondary.

tmr (later) is gonna be jampacked (:
i'm excited for the adm tea party :D

2006-05-08T00:40:00.000+08:00

omgggg this is hilarious:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0XxI-hvPRRA

props to yizhi, adm buddy #002. we're hoping hostel life will be this fun. :D

2006-05-07T09:44:00.000+08:00

I MUST be suffering from a mid midlife crisis, but then apparently I'm not alone?
Really really hope we're like this only because we're deprived of SCHOOL! and stress and shit. I don't even feel like doing the things I used to like anymore it's disgusting. August just come already! I need to abuse my mind and body.

2006-05-06T02:10:00.000+08:00

-lynn got into ntu a couple of days ago. (((: it's like 2/4 all over again cos sohkuan jo xm rui are most likely going ntu too (BUT NO CHARMAINE!) :D
really really felt relieved for her. i'm like a sitting duck waiting for all you peeps to get your deserved acceptance letters!
-jess and beh might be coming back for abit from indo and vancouver. (((:
-mel told me something damn CRAZY about LYT, which made alot of other things sound crazier... the world has OFFICIALLY ceased to make any sense.
-match was cancelled today, thank god.
-mic is going ntu biz. (: yixin is too if smu rejects (:
-shopped at kino and shite, they have damn alot of good and SKINNY books out on the tables. i saw this book which i thought you might pick up... and realised it was prolly the one you were talking about earlier.
-getting excited over adm tea party. free 128mb thumbdrives yo! and HIGH tea. wonder what they're gonna give this year :D this is my first time being in a richass school.
-flea @timberlux later!

2006-05-03T09:25:00.000+08:00

i'm living on chips and sleep.
and wth i can't believe i bloody agreed to play some exhibition/friendly match for sa on fri.
coagulating piece of lard here, yes. bloody 11-aside somemore. i can't even lock my bleeding ankle.

-

the weather sucks balls. i wanna go out and playyy. but it's been rainy/unsunny for WEEKS. so ive been holing myself up at home mostly, getting to be one hell of a piece of lumbering lard. ):
the thing about sports pple... once they stop trng you can TELL the difference. for some reason weifen looks tanner w/o having to go out in the sun. huh.

i was so Fbored last night, i blog-surfed and came across some pretty damn screwed-up pple's blogs. the kind of kids who wouldn't be screwed up if it weren't for stupidity or pride.
realised how so many pple start blaming god when something goes terribly wrong, then owes it to god when something goes right for once. and all that "god did that for a reason blabla". they talk about faith. yea, then you blame god when something screws up again huh.
for sakes give yourself some credit.
but that's just coming from someone standing at the sidelines, yea.

the perks of a sacrilegious however-you-spell-that atheist. heh.
someone please just rip my wrists open quick
lkjh

ohh before i forget, anyone wants to cohabit with me in uni? i promise i will CHANGE. i'll try to be neat. i'll get some anti-snoring device. i won't bring girls home.

2006-05-02T19:00:00.000+08:00

qwertyuiopasdfghjklzxcvbnm

2006-04-30T00:51:00.000+08:00

ok, to the kid who's been googling for ntu adm and ending up here, did you get in? own up! i might tell you when i do, if i do. ;]

-

today is part depressing part happy.

i heard the sa soccer girls lost to vj...
vik gave me his navy stikfas collection :D
kenneth got me a smiths cd. :D
my bro says he'll pay for a psp if we can share it ie. i get to bring it out but he gets to use it at home to play psp games :D
and tonight i feel pukeish again, so im typing in bits.

2006-04-29T00:04:00.000+08:00

always trust your mattel magic 8ball.

today felt so Fscrewed and underwater.
well this new bookstore @gwc saved today, kinda.
i managed to lure my mom out for dinner and to get some books yey.

i know im late but do you like this change anyway.
ohh wait you don't even read this anymore.
the world is depressing the shit out of me, yea.

2006-04-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

i hate taking photos.
i mean, you know how you have to fake a smile for the camera half the time ure posing for a shot? i hate it.
as if faking half-smiles for the bigger part of your life ain't enough...

you blog happy but you tell me about all the shit ure going thru.
you blog happy but you keep entries locked.
you blog happy but you keep a private blog...
because the world won't listen.

and THEN you have to fake a big smile for the camera.
TSK.

-

what a hangover.

met lirns for men at work, it was damn cute! i was trying damn hard to read the subtitles the entire time, but it was worth it. and for the first time the theatre was fullish.
lirns also got me this graphic design book that i already had, haha! so im passing her the copy i bought instead.
lirns squashed a baby cockroach at LJS and subsequently complained abt the little crack on the cover of her mashed potatoes. "eee what if germs get in"
haha working adults. tsk.

2006-04-27T00:55:00.000+08:00

omggggggggggg i feel damn hit by one million trucks.
my first 12+hrs STRAIGHT (i really mean straight) birthday bash.
i think i put on like 5kg today, and i came home with a burnt thumb from the sparklers ):
despite looking tired/fat/fair/flabby/old/wasted, i really was damn happy today!
OK pauline u suck at organising surprises. but i still love you :D

best mental snapshots of the day:
-me double-checking lirns creeping up behind me in pearl centre
-oblivious juelin with a foaming coke float
-the priceless 2seconds where pauline, claudia and i froze and just stared at each other because i saw something suspiscious going on under the table as i looked up from scraping at my scallop.
-georgie and angie surprising me at the bleeding ENTRANCE OF PLAZA SINGAPURA with a strawberry strudel topped with 1 coca cola lollipop, 1 pink lighted candle, and 3 exploding sparklers, screaming everybody's favourite birthday song. PRICELESS. and mind you they didn't even bother to walk close enough to me to make it a little more... private. i picked up my pace towards them because people from cartel, macdonald's and bemused/amused passerbys were giving damn UHMMMMMMMM looks.

YOU PPLE DAMN FUNNY/CUTE LA.

best snapshots of the day:

weif's holga. "shit man i need to make more signs for my holga." (she forgets to wind her film too.)

embarassing party hats.

homeless kids @gwc

directing our own advert

still directing our own advert

wirns the sparkler-lighter cum cameraman.

pic of the day!

these times will never change. (:

OK, BED.

2006-04-26T06:46:00.000+08:00

hoho, somebody googled ntu adm and ended up at my blog, so i decided to technorati it for kicks.
what it gave me was a whole cache of blogs with animated snowflakes, EnTrIeS ThAt lOok lYkE DiZ~, blogs with wah kao~/lolx~/CHINESE CHARACTERS.

i don't even FEEL like going ntu anymore. i'm snobbish, yea.

and i'm 19. ):

2006-04-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

don't feel bad for me, i want you to know
deep in the cell of my heart, i really want to go.

2006-04-21T19:20:00.000+08:00

today is ~~aarons~~(HEH) errands day with ferns!
first to mustafa then to tekka then to town then to peninsula.
and yea, i wished lings was there at first cos half the time i had to ostracise ferns in mustafa, but ferns made me laugh from 1.30 to 6pm hahaha.
she kept making indian COMMENTS and giggling at sales assistants/herself. she also wanted to eat the donut on my shirt xD

morissey/the smiths fest on clash on red fm (92.8fm), sunday, 10pm
:D

2006-04-19T17:09:00.000+08:00

Really hate it when people impose their values/judgments on me. I mean, I respect your views and everything. I shut up and listen and I don't say anything crude when our opinions don't match. So when it doesn't happen the other way, I'm deluded, stupid, and a liar ontop of that.
After awhile I just shut the hell up, listen to you ramble on about things that don't exist and your take on relationships and things. You go onandonandonandon until you finally stop.
And then you ask, why are you so quiet?

lol.

2006-04-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

Caught Lucid today.
It was so good, I teared. :O
I want it so bad on dvd!
And it doesn't make sense that people would rather watch Hollywood films than one of these.

2006-04-15T16:00:00.000+08:00

strange encounter #432

Today I got asked to help with a survey the moment I turned from dealing with this guy (yahoo auctions is king!)

"OK, male or female?"
"UHH, female (la)."
(she then half-hugs me as an apology. UHH. :|)

and after the survey was done we stood there chatting for quite abit. Quite HUH but she was pretty nice to talk to.
"So where do you go clubbing?"
"Uhh, I don't club."
"Huh then where do you hang out!"
"Uhh, at home? hahaha. Nah, I go to the city alot though"
"But you just said you come to town like 4-6times a week"
(Ohh well, I didn't read the survey questions properly la hahaha.)

She was quite amazed that I was from SAINT ANDREWS JUNIOR COLLEGE and that I'm an arts student + poseur struggling artist (haha ok, I just said i was waiting for ntu adm to accept me.)
Yea, knowing me, I started bitching abt SA and arts fac haha! It's sad how outsiders go OOOOOOH and AHHHH at SA, but all you can do is smirk, shake your head in disgust and think of who else but the one behind SA's downfall. :O

And you know what, while we were talking some foreigner came up to me and asked me how to get to Hyatt.

I don't get it, I thought I was the one with THE DEATH LOOK.

2006-04-15T01:45:00.000+08:00

Haha! Today I got asked by a china girl for directions, and a whole horde of american girls for standard ticket purchase and mrt-riding directions.

Chinagirl: Ni zhi dao wei er si zai na li ma?
me: HUH.
Chinagirl: Ni zhi dao wei er si yao zou na li?
me: HUH? bu zhi dao?
Chinagirl: MERLION!!!
me: Ohh! Ni zou dao qian mian da lu na bian,(just keep walking straight till you get to the mainroad,) then, ni(you)... [OK WINN WHAT IS CROSS OVER IN CHINESE?!] uhm.... ni CROSS OVER, jiu dao le!

Wirns the friendly Singaporean. :D

2006-04-14T03:40:00.000+08:00

Zenit Fotosniper Camera... :O
haha!

2006-04-14T01:19:00.000+08:00

Free advertising for nards!:

craft fair happening on 15th-16th april from 11am to 8pm at OG OrchardPoint for one-of-a-kind jewellery, shoes, apparel, bags etc.! spread the word!

-

Mel drove me from my house to town today :O
it was EXHILARATING/SCARY, because that girl kept going WHEEEEEE! and CHECK OUT MY U-TURN!

Anyways. I'm glad we haven't changed like others have.

(haha I STEAL!)

(:

-

I friggin saw a rainbow in the night!
What irony.

2006-04-12T04:04:00.000+08:00

do we really have to make everything nice/pretty/beautiful ours?
i think sometimes, it's prettier the other way.
or maybe it's just my head.

anyway, i miss school please!
application results are only out in MAY.
school only starts in AUGUST.
something about this system has to be changed!

highlights of today:
watched troy
play with blu-tack
eat farmland chips
chat
stone
ache
think
more farmland chips.

hmm, yea.

2006-04-09T16:57:00.000+08:00

It's been 5 hours since I'm supposed to get my ass off to Queens to get my racket strung.
I am that lazy.

2006-04-06T01:23:00.000+08:00

Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are.

I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Oh let's go back to the start.

-

Haha, am having a nostalgic talk with Jinyee about Kellock.
So I rummaged thru my box and found my journal in primary4, where we had to write to our form teachers on a weekly basis. I loved writing to Ms Ambrose! (Who became Mrs Cleetus end of that year, and I think my heart broke a little then. I refused to attend her wedding LOL)
These things are damn painful to read... (I spelt stuff like mentioned as mansioned!)
It is even more painful to read about how talented people thought you were then.

2006-04-05T22:13:00.000+08:00

Today was great:

1. Tennis with Paur in the morn :))))))))))))))))))))))))
"WTF SINCE WHEN WAS SHE LESBIAN."
"WTF YOU CANNOT BE SERIOUS."
"WTF SHE'S LESBIAN TOO?!"

That girl has the most shocking stories :O

2. Shopping with Georg :)))))))))))))))))))
We ended up shopping for our stuff instead of for Kenneth LOL
That girl made me laugh from 3.30pm to 7pm, yea.

3. Going to Angie's rescue LOL. :))))))))))))))))
Some people just don't take hints.
I have nothing personal against you, but dude. It's like Fobvious she doesn't wanna go out with you and you keep forcing her to meet you.
She has a boyfriend. You have a girlfriend.
DUDE.
Well things were just weird until I came up with an idea to shake her off :O

2006-04-04T23:37:00.000+08:00

I am feeling kinda high right now, and almost happy.
I don't know what it is that prevents me from being genuinely high and happy these days, it is like when I SHOULD be, there is just something... at the back of my head.

Anyways. Yday was 'lunch' with Lirns Derns Lings. :DDD
Lirns left for work and Derns for recharging her phone after some VINTAGE earring shopping hurh hurh. We made like an airport departure scene and waved as Lirns went back to her office, which was quite hilarious haha!
And whilst we were waiting for our buses at Stamford Ferns comes strolling past, we observed her for a few seconds and decide that she is weird even when she is alone by herself.

"Do you want me to accompany you? I have nothing to do now anyways."
"But I want to read my book..."
"WALAU! FINE."

"No, its just that you and Lings have been laughing at me since you guys met me it's making me dizzy!"
(Ferns defending herself when we wanted to ostracise her.)

"I want a mole on my face, I think it looks damn nice/cool!"
*raises eyebrows*
"Right? :]"
*looks at fellow sane subcliquer, then back at Ferns*
"Right? :]"
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"

And then today was windowshopping day with Kenneth :D
We went to Asylum and Goooodness and I wanna get so many things! And I want more checkered berms! (DAMN YOU, CHIN LONG PRINTING PRIVATE LIMITED.)

2006-04-04T13:03:00.000+08:00

I had a damn interesting convo with chris today. edited so you get the essentials, if you even bother!

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
nway update on tbfc
i think at most last till end of this yr
realize that quite a few r quitting
n mel quit for v long le w/o telling anyone [mel is the bitchy chinese girl with a malay boyfriend. she is nice to me though, so nevermind the bitchiness.]
n i was wondering where she went to..

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
cik mon has already quit [cik mon is the player cum female coach. she is nice.]
but they're trying to get her to stay
mas oso wanna quit [mas is this pretty malay girl who just got engaged start of this year. she has long body/short legs. she is nice to me too.]

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
why!

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
coz she's fed up with both e coaches
n leyla too [leyla is the supermodel of the team. hahaha]
utt is down with chronic illness [utt is the champion goalie. she is damn 'nigga'.]
seems that e virus spread to her kidneys

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
u mean cos of the time she was sick?

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
i think that contributed to it oso
she's out for at least six months
she (mas) is fine with them
as in she's like try to tolerate everyone kind of person mah
but is made a few comments about her engagement
n i think that's a sensitive topic for her
coz he seemed to imply that she lost her focus after her engagement
which is a v insensitive thing to say
leyla is oso ill
found out that she wasnt even supposed to play soccer in e first place
so e team is like kinda chaotic now
n cik mon quit means jams and yan oso quit [jams and yan are the senior players, they play good but they are scary shit.]

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
ha.ha.
i started a trend
LOLLLLLLL

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
coz e only reason they came was coz cik mon (hu was their former coach) asked dem
haha
u still dare to say
faz just went MIA [faz is one of the strikers who got benched together with me even though we should be out there because the coach had an argument with her too]

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
shit la
i feel bad for THE GM

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
n huda tore her ligament real bad [i don't really know huda. i said "huda you were damn power!" once and she just stared at me.]
she cant even walk normally
for at least 2 months le
but they dun want her to go for op

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
why!

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
i dunno

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
i feel damn bad for the gm omg

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
it's v messy at e moment

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
cik mon quit cos of all that nonsense is it

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
yep

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
they shd do some soul-searching. [they meaning iswan and his father.]

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
coz ben wanted to make her coach for e girls
den when they eard of it
the coaches started an anti0cik mon campaign like that
den u noe thse more easily influenced by is ones like mar [mar is one of the other loyal ones, she is nice too, but, i don't know. too loyal to the wrong pple?]
became abit cold la
so cik mon says that she rather quit n haf her name cleared
den stay on w/o respect
it's tough la, honestly

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
so i supp faz also quit right

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
i dunno
she din officially quit
she just stopped coming
n arena wants to try striker [arena is the back-up goalie. she is pretty good too. and she is nice to me.]
but they dun wanna even let her try

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
what!

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
has is till faithful sia [has is this cute little malay girl who's damn loyal. she is like a little mouse when she runs.]

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
has is damn faithful one la
shes such a little girl somemore

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
she's just trying to stay out of e confilict
haha
true

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
then far and nurul? [far and nurul are from sr, and they are really nice. they're more or less the only malays i can click with in the team. the only thing is, i didn't like the fact that they let nurul play striker, when she... can't.]

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
far is ok. she noes how to protect herself
nurul kanna slammed for inconsistent attendence
coz she goes for sch training on wed n club on fri

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
i thought she quite consistent?
ohh
but thats not fair to her what

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
den is scolded her for that. in front of e whole team
yar, that's what i tot
he says he can issue letter
to e school
i was like, what the?

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
what!
then like that how she play for sr

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
den leyla kanna for not bringing arena
i dunno
it's quite ridiculous
n he once made comments abt nurul being crooked

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
HARH what he say
whoa bitch

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
as in he made comments abt all e crrokeds
he said that those bungs play soccer coz they wanna show they r man

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
wtf!
siao.

(Clueless) I'm taking a step of Faith and it's Great! says:
so if he take a real girl to fight wif dem
e girl will win coz she plays coz of passion
haha..

take off that foolish hat. put down that chair. says:
WTF?
he really damn funny.

2006-04-02T17:42:00.000+08:00

things are feeling kinda fucked, but in a different way from the past 10 days or so.
and of all times to sprain an ankle. ): (ive never sprained anything before)

2006-04-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

I feel sick from all the ntu nonsense, so please stop asking me about it! Yesterday scared the shit out of me cos when I asked Angie what time the admissions office opens she said it ain't open during the weekends (which meant I 'missed' the application deadline)
So I panicked really really bad, but managed to get it to them anyways after ALOT OF SHIT.
Like hello if you want to close your admissions office on a sat then don't friggin put the application deadline on a sat!

Anyways I spent the rest of the day not printing, not typing, not racking brains, not appraisal-begging, not panicking. :D

I am reading this book called "The Perks of Being a Wallflower". It makes me almost-smile, almost-cry and almost-sick. I seem to like reading screwed-up books about screwed-up people, and it worries me, yet not. Haha!

Tennis tmr :D

2006-03-30T18:06:00.000+08:00

OK everything's just going wrong today.
The video editing prog was being a bitch, and then the printer was being a bitch (it refuses to print yellows ONLY YELLOWS accurately.), just to name a few.
Anyways I flew to pauline's house to get another software I hope this one works. And Kallang was raining dinosaurs, as it always does! The moment you cross over to Kallang it gets shades darker. I could even see a defining line of black clouds haha.
We made advance bookings for each others' birthdays xD

Not playing tennis (and I guess to a certain extent, soccer) makes me feel WEAK. and fat and fair and flabby and shitty. Please stop raining.

I don't know what came over me but I've decided to stop moping/slothing/stoning around and make a list of... aims/goals/things that need attention(?). I cannot let 2006 zoom past like this. New year resolutions after 1/4 of the year has gone by, yea. I don't believe in prioritising though.